Well, that is another year over. It seems like it only just started, but also felt like it has lasted a lifetime.
2018 was one hell of a year! A lot has changed over the past 12 months, for the good and the bad. This time last year I sat and wrote a blog post all about my grand plans for 2018 and to be honest, I may have been a little bit ambitious. So, I want to reflect on the year that is just ending and look forward to the year to come.
I wanted 2018 to be the year of ‘new’. I wanted to go on new adventures, experience new things and I guess, become a new me. I wanted to grab the year with both hands and make it the best one yet. I wrote a bucket list for the year and had every intention of ticking off everything on it. But, as usual, life gets in the way. Though, I did manage to do a fair chunk of it, and for that I am proud of myself.
2018 threw a whole lot of curveballs at me, and really tested my strength. At the start of the year I was starting to settle into a new job, and really began feeling like I was in a better place. I was working hard and enjoying what I was doing for work, for the first time since graduating university. It was all going well with my wee life in Edinburgh until I ended up packing up and moving through to Glasgow. Wasn’t quite how I wanted it to go, but I managed it and tried my best to keep it together and make Glasgow my home.
The stress of moving city was far greater than I ever imagined, and really knocked my mental health to a very low point. While that was all happening, I also lost my job. Panic mode well and truly set in, and for a while I was convinced it was never getting better. But, I got a job at my mums restaurant, and what was only supposed to be a month or two, has now been 7 months and counting.
The move to Glasgow most certainly shaped my 2018. Although it was so challenging, it gave me a new outlook on life, and gave me the opportunity to do all these new things I had planned for my year. I had to get to know a new city, a new job and had to make new friends. I also had the interesting challenge of dating in Glasgow. (spoiler alert, it is VERY different to dating in Edinburgh!!)
For the past 7 months I have spent my time going back and forward between Glasgow and Ayr for work and my goodness am I TIRED!! The commuter life is definitely not suited to me, so I have been seriously trying to figure out what is next for me.
In October I took the leap of faith in myself and did a 4 day business course at the Princes Trust. I have had an idea brewing (hint hint) for a quite a while now, so what better time to get things going? The course gave me some hope for my future, and the motivation to take my idea and make it a reality. There will be more of that to come in the new year, but I am excited that 2018 brought me the business idea and the tools to start it going.
At the same time as all this, I started dating. well, that was an experience!! I had some ups and downs to say the least, but I actually met someone!! Not to get all gushy and gross, but I am actually really happy. He treats me well, makes me smile and overall I just have a nice warm fuzzy feeling in me when I am with him. After being convinced I was going to be single for ever, there may be hope yet!
Overall, 2018 wasn’t a bad year, but it wasn’t quite the year I had planned out for myself. But then again, is it ever?
Looking back at this year, I can honestly say I have become a “new me”. I have certainly grown, I have experienced new things, had new adventures and got to know new people. My 2018 was messy. It was up and down and pretty much all over the place and although that doesn’t sound so great, in the end it was a pretty good year.
There were no trips to europeans cities, and I didn’t get to visit any new Scottish Castles, but I did conquer moving to a new city, I laughed more, I enjoyed the little moments in life and I managed my anxiety to the best of my abilities.
Like I said at the start of 2018, my overall goal was to rid myself of the negativity in my life. And while it is not possible to be completely void of negativity, I think I did a pretty good job of it. I’d like to think I took this year in my stride and tried to see everything in a positive light, and embraced the new!
I think for 2019 I won’t set any major goals. I have no idea what this next year is going to bring, but I am kind of excited by that. I am hoping that it will bring plenty of ups, but no doubt there will be a fair share of downs.
Instead of a big list of yearly goals, I am going to make it all a bit more achievable and set myself little monthly goals, and just embrace the year as it comes.
So, I am thankful for 2018, it was a crazy year, but it is time to move on!
Here is to a fabulous 2019!